The state of collapse doesn’t want to be messed with.
It wants to be held, loved and tended.
It’s despair and lethargy all mixed up into one.
A dizzying cocktail it’s no fun
Rising up from the depth without a warning
The mind is plagued, thoughts are swarming
This ancient pain is too much to bear
It’s murky, it’s real – it’s so much fear
Fall into this , the abyss is calling
There’s no other way – enough stalling
You tried pushing, hiding, numbing and biding
Nothing is working, you can’t stop the fighting
Work your way from the outside in
Name where you are and feel your skin
Look around and notice this moment
Your nervous system is not your opponent
Safety is here even if it doesn’t feel real
You haven’t failed there’s just too much on your plate
You’ve been gaslit since time began
Culture, family and all the men
It’s been a wild ride and now you’re digesting
The hurt the confusion your Heart’s been fasting
It’s no small thing to unfurl in this environment
Don’t gaslight yourself in believing you’re arrogant
What you feel is valid and what you see is true
Drop all the spiritual concepts you thought you knew
Trauma is real and your experience is valid
Don’t skip the meal and just eat the salad
Your path is unique and it’s your own
Trust your gut and hone in your bones
Nobody can tell you what it’s like for you
That’s why you’re here and it’s a blessing too
Remember that when doubt takes over
An old habit it comes with an odor
To rob you blind of your own riches
Make you poor and throw you in the ditches
There’s nothing humble about distrusting yourself
In the name of the Unknown you put your power on the shelf
Misguided by trauma spiritual guidance can be tricky
If you’re not careful you’ll find yourself all sticky
Not knowing where you end and where the other begins
If you don’t reign in it in you’ll find the mind spins
Taking on a task it can’t handle
In there you can light yourself a candle
By finding the source of the mind’s spinning
A buzzing a whirring a feeling of sinning
You’ll find it in the body a tsumani of confusion
Unsafety and fear are its illusions
Trusting yourself is the key
Not as a belief but more like the only guarantee.